It’s been a while since I used tumblr and I usually hate writing so I never post anything but today feels like a good day to write an entry.
I moved to Morehead City, NC for 3 months! It’s been a very different experience as I live with a baeeegggin and there’s not an Asian or anything Asian besides like Japanese restaurants around. When I arrived on the first day, I felt extreme loneliness… to the point of calling my parents at like 10 oclock at night and I never do that. Then I called Grace saying I’m lonely… of course she said suck it up basically hahah. But this loneliness was rather unbearable.
It’s been around 2 weeks since I started working. What I thought was 9-5pm job became a 6-5pm job and so physically demanding/draining. I am the shortest, only yellow skinned, black haired dude in the lab. GAHHH I felt so out of place to the point of questioning God why I have been placed where I am right now.
The interesting thing is, I woke up today at 8ish and I had the urge to read scripture and give my time for God. I asked that may His will be done while I’m here. Then the strangest thing happened. While on an outing with my coworkers, we got in the conversation about Christianity. One of them hated Christianity, the other respected it but was atheist and the others were apathetic. I felt like it was my time to shine and started talking about apologetic like it was a piece of cake. Then I got humbled. REAL humbled. One of the nicest guy started getting really technical and yeah I lost the fight for God. I barely said anything just getting slapped in the face with all these arguments against the church and Christ.
I realized how slack I’ve become at reading the scripture. I realized how I’m not abiding in Christ’s love. When I was talking to them, I, for the first time, felt what it means have my heart broken for the lost. It literally ached for those who could not see the truth. Then I realized that I have been placed here to expose the light to those who have not seen His love. I have a purpose here and it’s not only to get an experience for my future but to “go and make disciples of all nations”
**excuse my discombobulated sentences**
